I seek nature to hear your thoughts or simply rewind my memories to find a time when you were there. But all I find is a choking silence, and it cuts so deep into the rawness of my soul. It freezes me in a way that won’t let me cry. Sometimes I feel I can’t escape it while other times I simply close my eyes, draw in a deep breath and your smile pops up infront of me. A beautiful, radiant smile which is enough to light my soul until eternity.