This is in response to the ‘Freedom of Expression Tag’. I was nominated by a talented writer please check out her blog, https://nameeraeverafter.wordpress.com/
Thank you Nameera for the nomination, I hope I gave the subject some justice.
Break the Cycle.
Your nasty glare goes right through me as if I were nothing. I hear whispers behind me in class which I can’t make sense of , and I lift my textbook up pretending not to care. The teacher’s words blur as I draw in a deep breath and keep thinking, ‘I am strong enough!’ However, there are certain things nobody knows that I had to struggle to get out of bed this morning. I had to forcefully look at myself in the mirror while your hurtful words repeated in my head. The words you thought were hilarious . The words the whole school practically laughed at for hours while they pointed and stared at me. Sometimes I’m strong enough to realize they’re just words and I go on with my days while other times they make me wish I could disappear.
I walk out of first-period class barely holding myself together. My knees go weak as I wish I was invisible again. I’m scared of humiliation, scared to be left out. My head is starting to wonder again if your hate is justified. ‘Is there really anything wrong with me?’ I’m heading to the nurse’s office with my eyes aiming down, ashamed of my classmates’ stare. I could just pretend to be sick for the rest of the day and simply disappear. I raise my eyes off the floor for one second and in the corner I find a pile of raincoats that everybody is pointing at. As I approach the scene I notice there is a girl there, few years younger than me. Her eyes darting back and forth from the floor to the people passing beside her. The terror in her eyes is so familiar that it pokes my chest. I hear laughter and all my fears subside as the sentence, ‘It doesn’t matter,’ floats through my mind.
‘Haven’t they done enough already? With the sarcasm and the rumors.’ I can tell the girl is about to lose it so I stretch my arm out to her, “It’s okay, you can get up now.” It’s unbelievable how my words float towards her with power and strength. She grabs onto my hand and smiles at me as if I just saved her life. She quickly pushes the raincoats off her and stands up, “Thank you.” She says quietly, while everyone scatter to their classes as if nothing had happened.
Thank you for reading. The subject was about “Bullies” thankfully I survived my school years with barely any bullying. This topic makes me emotional because few years ago I taught at a school and I know how these actions effected my students. Believe me at times it’s much worse than what I’ve described. I also taught a girl at home who was being bullied at school, her tears broke my heart. I believe we can break this viscious cycle by small acts of kindness. I also wrote one of my characters in my novel to be a witness to bullying, so now the words came out easily.
The topic that I’ve selected for my nominees is “Friendship” It is completely up to you if you want to write about it positively or negatively. I am looking forward to your posts ♥
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