TOXIC CALL (A Collaboration)

This is a collaboration with the very talented and sweet Manessah

 https://couchtalkwisdom.wordpress.com/

The screen blinks in total darkness right before it rings. I reach out to get it and there’s your name again. Another night where I’m expected to lose sleep and put my life on hold for you. I hate that everytime the phone rings and I see your number now, my first thought is “What do you want from me?”.  It’s like your hand is always out wanting something from me, but you never offer to do one damn thing for me. All you do is use the people you claim to love like tools.  We’re humans, you know? Not toys.

The sound slowly fades into the background, as I lower my feet to the floor. I can’t bring myself to talk to you. It’s like everything I chose to ignore about our friendship, hit me all of a sudden. All the subtle signs that I didn’t want to notice for the sake of our friendship. But the question is: Am I the only person begging for this friendship to thrive? How can you call yourself a loyal friend, when you steadily stab me in the back?

We have a 90/10 friendship – I put in 90 percent of the effort, while you put in your generous 10 percent. There were times when I needed you and you wouldn’t even listen. There were times when I wanted reassurance that everything will be okay and you simply averted your attention to something you felt was more entertaining. I thought our friendship would last forever, but now you only talk to me when you need to complain. I’ve been there at times when your world was falling apart, but if my world falls apart, I stand alone and pick up the pieces by myself. It would be nice if you listened without judging and if you heard what I had to say, even it was heartbreaking. It would be nice if you didn’t try to shatter my dreams and remind me of how far I am from my goals.

You have no idea how much it hurts me when you turn your back on me, simply for being truthful with you. You paint me out as the villain and, somehow, you come out as the victim every time.  Do you ever think about how YOU hurt ME every time you ignore my calls, simply because I told you something you didn’t want to hear, but needed to hear?

You can dish out the rejection all day long, but let’s see if you can take it. Maybe I should take a page out of your book and start looking out for me this time.

©Manessah 

©ZeinaA.G

11 Comments Add yours

  1. Nameera says:

    This post reminds of the time I unfortunately ended up being friends with an egotist. You guys described it so perfectly, the feeling when one person is putting all the effort while the other simply hangs around to use them as an outlet for their stories, thoughts & judgements. They’ve a lot to say to you, advice you on but they forget to make a mere effort such as being there when you really need them.

    It’s like sailing on a lopsided boat where your end drowns in the ocean while they enjoy at the surface ignorant to the fact that they’re taking away your happiness piece by piece.

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    1. So true!😍 I love how you described it🤗

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  2. Sakshi says:

    Wonderful collaboration ….. You guys are so in sync

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  3. Thank you! We were soooo in sync that it scared us both😶😳

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  4. Manessah B. says:

    Twinny, I had so much fun working on this collaboration with you! This was a huge honor for me!! ☺️💕
    You are just awesome, sis!!

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    1. YOU ARE DOUBLE AND TRIPLE AWESOME♥♥ NOW…Step away from the keyboard hahahhaahahahah

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      1. Manessah B. says:

        hahahahahaha!!! Omg.. I’m going to be laughing about that for ages! 😂💖💖💖

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  5. Two of the most talented people I know. What a sight to behold. This is unbelievable, you guys, this makes me so proud. Love you! 😭😍😍

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    1. ♥♥Thanks for paving the way Steph and introducing us to eachother! Thanks for getting me addicted to this community♥ I met so many wonderful and talented people here.♥♥♥♥ Your support means a lot to me♥♥♥LOVE YOU TOO!

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      1. Love you, Zeina. I am so glad that you’ve found awesome people. You deserve to be known, you are a wonderful person. 😍

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      2. ♥♥♥♥ Right back at you!!♥♥♥ Love you too!

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