I searched for you in total darkness but you were nowhere to be found.
So I gave up and searched for you in other people…
I still couldn’t find you.
I searched for understanding and I couldn’t find it.
I tried everything I could to search for a purpose.
I tried everything in my power to find a reason that explained your absence…
But silence answered me and it broke my heart.
Your absence shattered me into a million pieces,
And it felt that it would last for a long time.
As time went by I began picking up the pieces.
I noticed that when my words failed me,
They came out in writing.
When sadness deluded me into thinking you weren’t with me,
You sent me a sign.
And when that sign wasn’t enough you sent a million more.
Each time I failed to mention your name,
It would ring in my ears whenever darkness fell.
For years , I’ve prayed for my heart to heal.
But the things you gave me were so much more…
I learned to carry that broken heart,
And to embrace the cracks.
I learned to notice the signs,
Which scream out that you’re still with me.
With a flickering candle you lit a new path through this darkness.
You paved a way for my soul to heal,
And on that path I’m learning that there’s so much more to life than what meets the eye.