I Searched For You

I searched for you in total darkness but you were nowhere to be found.
So I gave up and searched for you in other people…
I still couldn’t find you.

I searched for understanding and I couldn’t find it.

I tried everything I could to search for a purpose.
I tried everything in my power to find a reason that explained your absence…
But silence answered me and it broke my heart.

Your absence shattered me into a million pieces,
And it felt that it would last for a long time.

As time went by I began picking up the pieces.
I noticed that when my words failed me,
They came out in writing.

When sadness deluded me into thinking you weren’t with me,
You sent me a sign.
And when that sign wasn’t enough you sent a million more.

Each time I failed to mention your name,
It would ring in my ears whenever darkness fell.

For years , I’ve prayed for my heart to heal.
But the things you gave me were so much more…
I learned to carry that broken heart,
And to embrace the cracks.

I learned to notice the signs,
Which scream out that you’re still with me.

With a flickering candle you lit a new path through this darkness.

You paved a way for my soul to heal,
And on that path I’m learning that there’s so much more to life than what meets the eye.


3 Comments Add yours

  1. Jenny says:

    Zeina, this hits close to home and your words are soothing to a soul that can go weary at times. Love this beautiful writing my dear friend! Sandi is smiling fondly on you for sharing your passion ! ❤️

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    1. Your comment brought tears to my eyes.💖
      Glad you loved this post because your opinion means a lot to me.
      Sandi is always on my mind when I’m blogging. She was one of the first people who encouraged me to enter contests.
      I bet all her questions from her own blog have been answered and she’s smiling down on us.💖

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