The Room.

She kept everything tidy,
And in chronological order.

The windows and the walls were all tinted black,
She liked the curtains tightly shut.

In a place that was truly hers,
She knew nobody else belonged there.

It was like an un-accessible room,
A grim place where nobody could enter.

A place where the memories floated,
And the heartaches multiplied.

On the surface,
 She laughed and smiled.
But
On the inside,
She craved peace and real happiness.

As long as she shut herself in this world,
Nobody would know this grim place she kept,
Where her thoughts hit walls,
And viciously bounced back at her.

It was a place where with every heartbeat she felt lonelier,
A place where black holes would come out of nowhere,
And try to swallow her whole.

In her opinion, it wasn’t so bad…
After all it was a place where she didn’t have to cover up her sadness with a fake smile.

However, she soon made a discovery,
That as long as the door is closed,
And those huge curtains are shut,
Healing would never find a way inside.
©ZeinaA.G

8 Comments Add yours

  1. Muntazir says:

    This is nice. Loved it

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    1. Thank you♥ Glad you loved it 😀

      Like

  2. Manessah B. says:

    It’s like reading how I’ve lived most of my life…
    Beautifully written and heartfelt, sis. This one resonated deeply with me.

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    1. Thanks twinny!
      If we live protected our whole lives we would miss out on a lot of things and I wouldn’t have met you…😘😘 ( I feel so bad for you🤣)

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      1. Manessah B. says:

        haha!! Yeah, I’m learning to live on the edge a bit, take risks… Yes, I did that and met you … Is that a good thing??? LOL!!!

        Of course it is! 😘😘

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  3. One of my favorite poems of today. 🙂

    Love this line: “After all it was a place where she didn’t have to cover up her sadness with a fake smile.”

    It’s exactly how I feel and I feel for your poem as well.

    Fake smiles outside with people or family becomes an anxiety and brings more sadness to the area.
    People have to put on this mask to hide how they truly feel but we the hurt one as feeling the most pain and heart broken.

    I love everything you’ve expressed here. Truth and I love it.

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    1. I love how you dive deeply into my posts. AND yes I agree each time I’m trying so hard to keep it together I get anxious later on.
      No more hidden sadness for me personally, I’ve been working on getting everything out without anything holding me back. Out is always better than IN!

      Thank you so much for reading and
      sharing your thoughts. It really makes my day! 😀

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      1. You are correct. Out is always better. The more you hold in…it gets worse for the heart. I would know because I have this problem where I sometimes hold everything in and my emotions start coming out at the worse moments. By that…I cry uncontrollably that my girlfriend is there to comfort me…or when she’s not around…I cry by myself. I know being strong, meditating, or exercising keeps the mind focus.

        You are welcome my friend. 🙂

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