Something Real and Raw.

Loneliness is real and I’ve been struggling with it a lot in the past year. The sensation has increased in the past three months because all of a sudden a lot seemed to have changed. I don’t know if I’ll be able to explain it but I’ll try my best.

It’s when life hits you hard and you realize everyone around you has changed. Some people outgrow the passions that brought you together and you bonded over. I know a lot of people have outgrown me and it hurt me deeply to accept it. But that’s a huge part of life and loneliness is a huge part of being human. When you realize that the people who cheered you on when you began are no longer there. It’s about learning to accept the pain of not being heard enough or not being appreciated. In a blink of an eye people stop asking about you and you think you’ve lost everyone.

It’s when you realize you have to build yourself back up even at a time when you’re pushing so hard against obstaces with no results showing. When you’ve grown yourself with everything you’ve been learning and you can see yourself almost fulfilling your projects. It’s that clear path that nobody seems to ask or know about but you know it’s there and you still believe in it.

It’s these questions that loom around in your mind in the darkness, “Who Am I now?”….”Will I make it?….”Will this struggle turn into something useful one day?”….”Will I ever trust anyone again?”

It stings to know that you’ll never get answers until you’re further down the road and all you can do right is just put one foot in front of the other.

Hope this rant made sense.


12 Comments Add yours

  1. Hope you feel better soon.

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    1. Thank you😊Felt better as soon as I wrote it out😁

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      1. You’re welcome. Sometimes writing it out helps a lot.

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      2. It sure does…Hope you’re doing well 😀

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      3. I’m doing all right. Thank you.

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  2. beyondimagination25 says:

    It’s really commendable to speak about all those feelings of being alone and harsh moments so openly. Hats off! I could totally relate myself with all these.

    Happy writing and if don’t mind read my recent blog on that same thing

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  3. Reina says:

    In this moment, this is exactly how I feel. I hope you are better now ❤️

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    1. So sorry that you’re going through this. I just read your blog post and it resonated with me too.
      I can say that I understand it better. I understand some things need to come out no matter how dark and lonely they may feel.
      Then one day you look around to realize I just made it through the worst days of my life and I’M STILL HERE!
      Sending healing vibes your way xoxox You’ve got this!

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      1. Reina says:

        Thank you Zeina ❤️

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