I’d like to thank the people who’ve been a constant support during the last two months.
I know I’ve announced some surprisingly bad news over the past months. In December, my uncle passed away suddenly and grief left me raging for a while. Just few days ago, we lost my other uncle’s wife. Even though I’m sure she’s at peace we’re heartbroken.
I’m just writing to say that consecutive losses is never easy, and no matter how prepared we are losing people is never simple. It’s not something you get over in one day. Loss can bring out a lot of emotions of fear and instability. It can also bring about bad advice from people who pressure you to get over it fast.
If only it was this simple while we’re mourning the people who left us. We often mourn our memories, the love, the space they left behind. We mourn the people we were before the loss, because the pain from the loss forces us to change everything about ourselves.
The changes that have come from these losses made me realize I was ignoring my instincts. If I’m too worried about what people are going to say then it’s not worth it. If I’m walking on eggshells with the people around me then it’s time to let them go.
I’m hoping anyone reading this while going through hell would take it into consideration to have a little patience. Life is not always peaceful and stress free. The whole point of this blog to write everything out. Sometimes it could be happiness and gratitude. Other times it’s grief and fears.
There’s nothing wrong with being human. Nothing wrong with being honest with yourself and accepting that things won’t be okay for a while. Nothing wrong with fearing the future a little. Because life sometimes changes so fast and flips your perspective.
The most beautiful lesson I’ve learned, is that there are people out there who would still show up for the people they love. The events that have happened in the past few weeks taught me that I would leap for my loved ones in a heartbeat. Also, that I’m ready to do it over and over again.
So whatever you’re going through, I see you.
When you have doubts, talk it out with someone who isn’t judgmental. There’s no shame in going through a lot and being overwhelmed. Talking it out with the right people puts a lot of things into perspective and give you a small push in the right direction.
Thank you everyone for the support. It’s deeply appreciated. ♥