The Beach House

This is a little old I wrote it for my Godmother, it brought me comfort to re-read. I wanted to re-share here and dedicate it to anyone dealing with a loss whether fresh or old, hang in there ♥

The beach is where I imagine she’d be, with the sound of her footprints scrunching down onto a grassy surface. Her loud laughter could still be heard in the howling wind as she roams the place where she once lived and adored.

The house with the wonderful beach view remains holding the laughter of the past, un-affected with the sudden silence her absence has left. As if everything she ever was had been imprinted in that place.

Nothing had changed since I was last there. I was under the same skies we had watched together at sunset and the same sun rays we’d woken up to at the crack of dawn. The small pool in the sea which was named after her is still there even the new waves coming in and out know of her existence.

It was the only place left un-caring of the fact that she was gone for good. The same full moon still came out as full as the times we sat on the balcony and told each other funny stories.

The warm, spring breeze hit my face gently as I just stood there staring at the sea. It was the closest I’ve ever felt to God, my inner soul and to Mona, since she had departed. The stand I had taken many times before over her grave seemed to have no effect on me. Not even the cold steel that encrypted her name on a grave was that close to her as I was that moment.

The answers to my everlasting question came bouncing infront of my eyes. She’d been there all along; somewhere I’ve never looked, under the same blue skies and dark nights.

All it took was a drastic change to see that the world won’t bend to our sadness, no matter how intense it could come. Spring remains spring, and winter will be winter. The memories of our loved ones remain circling around us, if we want them or not, they remain there just waiting for the right time to be remembered as something beautiful.

©Zeina A.G

21 Comments Add yours

  1. Jay Bleu says:

    Glad to see some of your beautiful photos 🙂

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    1. I knew you’d like them 😀 These are some oldies that I love and I’ve already shared them on FB.
      I spent few summers at this place when I was a kid. Wish I can live there again. 😀

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      1. Jay Bleu says:

        Looks nice. I think sunsets and sun rises are your thing!

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      2. Never shot a sunrise. Too many buildings here block the view.
        I love clouds because they add beautiful details.

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      3. Jay Bleu says:

        Yes. Do you look for shapes in the clouds?

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      4. Jay Bleu says:

        haha, i should have guessed you already had a post about it!

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      5. 😂😂😂Nyahahhahha

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  2. I feel this one deeply in my heart. 😦

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    1. Thank you my dear friend! I wrote this in 2008 while I was healing from my aunt’s death.
      I was stuck for a few years not grieving and then it hit me really bad. So I made a special copybook for this purpose and vowed to write through my emotions until the end. I think I have few more pieces similar to this.

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      1. You are welcome. 🙂

        I know what you mean when it hits you. Panic attacks right? I felt the same way…when I was driving all of a sudden my hands felt numb and my heart was pounding fast. And I was hyperventilating and I had to pull over and cry out loud. Is that the feeling you experience at some point?

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      2. My grandfather’s sister died 5 years after my aunt had passed away. So on the day of the funeral when I called to offer my condolences to my grandparents…I froze & remembered my aunt’s death. I started crying and couldn’t explain the feeling. Shortly afterwards I made the decision to write it all out and grieve her properly.
        That’s when I learned that when you delay grief it hits you twice as hard later on.

        I think in the past few months I’ve passed through the sensation you described as well. 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️It’s horrible when you feel a panic attack in your chest too!

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      3. oh…my…I’m so sorry to hear about your experience. It sucks when the feeling inside builds up and its diffcult to cry and when it happpens, panic attacks kick in out of nowhere and it feels like one is dying.

        Last time, I had a panic attack was 2 months ago. It sucks.

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      4. Oh dear! It sucks and the situation all over the world doesn’t really help. Have you tried meditation?? It has helped me a lot!
        I used to feel more anxious before I returned to my yoga practice!

        Take care of yourself and if you ever need to talk just email me.

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      5. Agree. All this fear and worry has everyone in a state of confusion and anxieties on a rise.

        I have from time to time meditate. I also love listening to a whole lot of music to help me relax and writing helps as well.

        You do to yoga practice? How often?

        I will e-mail you soon. 🙂

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      6. MUSIC HELPS SOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!

        I aim for 4/5 yoga sessions per week. Even if it’s sometimes only for 25 minutes. I stopped for a year because of wrist pain ….I never understood why I was so anxious until I returned to the practice last December.
        Like you I’ve meditated on & off. Now I’m on day 12!

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      7. What kind of music are you into? I don’t know if I asked you that before.

        Wow! I should really get into yoga. I mostly jog or do exercise at home.

        Are you familiar with ‘transcendental meditation’?

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      8. Pop music. Celine Dion, Sia…etc.
        I’ve also been obsessed with broadway lately😊

        Nope not familiar with ‘transcendental meditation’

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      9. oh…cool. Broadway musical is fun and beautiful.

        You should look into ‘transcendental meditation’. Supposedly, it helps with everything in one’s life. It’s a process but I don’t know to what extend.

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      10. I will look into it and let you know! Right now I’m doing Deepak Chopra’s 21 days of abundance. It’s on youtube!

        I recently discovered the musical”Wicked” & I’m obsessed…Wish I had a time machine so I can watch them live! LOL

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      11. That’s awesome.

        You know I’ve never seen the musical ‘Wicked’? I’ve heard of it but never got around to it.

        Question: Do you have a skype?

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