Things that lurk beneath the surface.

I find it quite fascinating what hides between our words, our concerns…What lurks beneath the surface of that mask we wear everyday…Is it fear, kindness, hatred, a certain grudge, grief or despair? Are we just passing time trying not to miss the people who have left us? Are we all just trying to survive the…

Birthday in Heaven.

After all these years it’s still hard to write about this but I know my heart and soul is affected by this deep grief right around this time each year for a reason. It’s my late aunt’s birthday month, the first person who provided a safe place for me to dream big and my first…

Walk Away.

How can I find myself if my emotions are too much for you and you’re talking to me just to be judgmental?How can I find myself if you’re in my life just waiting for me to fall?How can I find my self worth if you’re always putting me down?If my grieving heart is too much…

Three Years in Heaven.

Some may think we said our goodbyes three years ago and that was it … But in my eyes the life we knew suddenly stopped. It wasn’t just one wave of change that hit us and that was it. It was more like several waves that erased all the traces of the life we’d been…

Love

To the memory of my loved ones in heaven.♥ I understand how hard it is to search for love when grief is eating your heart away piece by piece. However, Love has no limits, the deeper you feel it the harder it is to lose. You can find it in the dark corners, beneath the…

Melody

His eyes concealed a million words that I wished I knew half of them. Most were never said, while others came out pure and loving. His voice rose like a gentle melody, it was often misheard as he mimed most of his words. Despite his absence, his soul glows on my dim path. I can…

Shadows

You’ve been sitting in the coldest room since forever, searching for a reason to hold on.  A life reel flashes across the darkness. Shadows begin coming to life within seconds they turn to images of wonderful memories you’ve had, since you could remember. You try to look away knowing that the pain of the memories…